Ten of Swords
Eight of Cups *
The Tower
Ten of Pentacles
Judgement
Temperance *
Two of Swords
Page of Swords
Death
Five of Pentacles
Analysis:
This is arguably the culmination of all of my readings done as of late. Sort of capturing the current outlook of the future for the major paths I'm on.
The Eight of Cups is considered the "immediate influence" for my future. If we look at Reading 1, we see that as the final result to the programming question. That transition will clearly occur at some point and will be a significant influence on the final outlook on the future. I can't shake the feeling that it might be referring to something else though - something to do with the Tower maybe?
The Tower. Wow. I usually fear seeing this card in any spread, especially in the Ultimate Goal/Destiny spot (like we have here.) Though upon reflecting on it, it represents a rather intriguing option and path that I hadn't considered in this whole thing. Considering the general feeling I'm getting from these readings, The Tower not only seems like a logical outcome, but I don't necessarily consider it negative. It might actually be what saves me from (or is ultimately caused by) the Five of Pentacles.
Ten of Pents = When I lived at home. Judgement = Moving out and getting my new job. Distant past and recent events of how I got to this whole situation. Standard.
Temperance, however, is very interesting. It is seen here as a "Future Influence" (different from the Eight of Cups, more long term.) Reading 2 shows Temperance as the final result for my query into 2012. This is one of a handful of times I've ever seen the deck actually get this specific on timing. This spread acknowledges that the results of 2012 will have an influence on the final outlook on the future. Though it makes me wonder how far this reading is looking at.
Two of Swords = Current position/mindset. Page of Swords = Environment.
Death. I've seen this twice now tonight and I definitely agree that it reflects a strong portion of my inner thoughts/emotions. Not in any real morbid way (not any more than usual anyway) but more in a strong desire for change. I'm happy to see the consistency here. It should be noted as something to consider with the larger scheme.
The Five of Pentacles. Let's be honest here, after everything I've seen, the future is not looking like good times. But let's consider that all of this is representing a potential look at the future of my current path. Given the Eight of Cups and now the Five of Pentacles, it's pretty clear that attempting a future in Game Design/Programming leads to limited success and ultimately failure and abandonment.
But let's consider Temperance in this whole thing. Somehow all of this bad is going to get mixed with some kind good and it's important to note that whatever that good is, it hasn't appeared in any of the current readings (outside of Games.) This means that the good that will mix has to come from somewhere OUTSIDE my current path and maybe that's where the Tower fits in:
Something, I would venture Games related but who knows at this point, is going to be a good influence on me during this time of negative outlook. It will probably trigger the Tower or the Tower acts as the transition from this current path to a new one.
Of course, all of this is really just meant to give perspective. To speak to the subconscious and see where I'm at mentally and emotionally. I don't feel good about a lot of what I see. This could be a warning for me to either take it more seriously or just be mindful of my future choices. There are signs of hope and happiness, but it definitely looks like there are a lot of changes and more bumps in the road.
Well, when has anything ever gone smoothly?
~Goodnight~
